Anomie
I have been fighting fires (metaphorically speaking) this whole week, and every other day there seems to be some new crisis for me to fire-fight. The latest calamity being my computer which has oh so conveniently decided to crash on me, 2 weeks before a major assignment is due. Luckily i have another copy otherwise i would be really freaking out. If there is ever a time for me to feel a sense of anomie, this is it. I realised how much a computer crash sucks up an immense amount of time without you really realising it. You go through the same stages of grief when your computer hangs. First the denial, as you try to fix it, then the anger, frustration, hopelessness and finally that voice in your head that tells you its only a computer. But, its not, because it is the data, the writeups, the holiday photos, the songs all of which take a special place in your heart. Losing all your data is like losing your memory, losing a bit of the past.
Memento Mori. When you lose something that is of value to you, you are reminded of the ephemeral value of existence and how in the end, everything must go. In a way i am grateful for this crisis because it has invigorated me and made me feel alive. When you coast along in life, you tend to take things for granted. When things screw up, it forces you to reassess your priorities. So there won’t be any updates on this site for some time, because i have fires to fight, and miles to go before i sleep. In the end, we return back to tabula rasa. Now if you excuse me, i have a computer to reformat.
